The following is correspondence between K and Rajagopal which led to the utter surrender of K's legal defence in the action brought against him by Rajagopal, and it is clear that he allowed the case to collapse rather than to have his adultery and abortions revealed in open court.

My dear Rajagopal,

As it will not be possible for me to speak to you face to face, I am compelled to write to you this letter. If you like you may show it to your trustees or, if you want, I will send them a copy . For the first few years after the brother's death you were considerate. You did look after K and the things you were supposed to do. But at Eerde you began to quarrel with me over little things. For example you said that you did all the work and I just mooned about. It slowly began this antagonism, jealousy, your manoeuvring people and K. We used to travel together but then you would send me off on different routes to America and India to save money while you would go more directly in greater convenience. The quarrels, the bullying went on for many years. I could have complained to Dr Besant, who was still alive, and you would have been promptly sent back to India, but as K is not the complaining type, we carried on. You were always depressed in the mornings, low, irritable, quarrelsome. In the afternoons, after lunch, you were fairly active. It was slowly mounting, your complete contempt, suspicion and the secrets which you kept to yourself about the books, the money and so on. You also kept a secret account you told me no one knew about. So it went on, the quarrels, calling me names. You often told me that they should have chosen you, because you had the brains and I was good-looking but more or less an idiot. That was your general attitude toward K.

Rajagopal, bear this in mind: I was never frightened of you. I hated scenes, small or big, so I would avoid them at any cost. In India and Europe you were treated as a secretary, which you loathed and you used to attack me as though I were responsible for it. It all became so ugly, brutal and I submitted to all this rubbish. I have not talked about you and the lady. Only after the case began and you brought that into it that I had to tell trustees here of all the ugliness you made of it. You used to tell people though KWINC had plenty of money, there were no funds for K's travels. You would then ask different amounts for the same ticket from several people, always asking them to keep it secret.

A month before this, in April, 1985, K had put on tape another, much longer letter which was likewise never sent. Below are some extracts from it:

I am writing this to you, Rajagopal, because you refuse to see me. During the Eerde days we began to quarrel. Not me-you-I am not the quarrelling type. You were a great bully, right from the beginning, since the brother died. It began very gently at first, mildly, then the bullying became stronger and stronger I couldn't see anyone without telling you whom I saw and then you would be bullying me by saying: "Why are you seeing that person and so on. There was nobody to supervise what you were doing. In India you told them" give money and don't ask what I am doing with it. It's none of your business". You told them if they wanted to know how it was spent you would see to it that I did not come back to India. You became like a tyrant which is really quite astonishing how you began and how you have ended. You have done the most terrible things. You really wanted to kill the whole thing, the teachings, not physically because that would be murder, and you would be too frightened to do that, but you tried every way-because you are a jealous person. Obviously you are very jealous. You might not like to listen to all this, or read all this, but you have to be told directly how I look at all this after all these years. And I couldn't, me, I couldn't spend $10 without explaining to you every cent how I spent it. You also told people in Holland long before I broke with you, and in England, that you were a very wealthy man. I couldn't believe my ears; I was really appalled, how you could become a wealthy man. Because we both started poor. I never wanted money; I have no money now, I don't want it, except I have a few clothes and good shoes and ties, otherwise, I have really nothing. And you, after all these years, by some extraordinary cunning means have got millions.

The rest of this nine-page letter is about much later events, dealing with what led up to K's total break with Rajagopal in 1968 and the sebsequent lawsuits. Two years after the writ was served on K by Rajagopal, 17 May, 1983, K dictated that letter to Mary Zimbalist which was never sent, passages of which have already been quoted. Below are the final paragraphs from it:

You must have schemed for years, concealing, and deceiving everyone. I am sure from what I have known of you that you have not let your friends who call themselves trustees, know all your manoeuvring to get the properties for yourself Probably you have told them adverse things about me. What you have you hold on to. What you have was not given to you. It was given to the Teachings out of generosity, devotion, and you have exploited those who have sacrificed; you have exploited me and you have the further audacity to blackmail me.
You brought something into the case that had nothing­ding to do with it for the purpose of blackmail. I call you a blackmailer and others have said you are an embezzler, to which you say nothing. Naturally. This morning Mr Bee brought me a letter with a statement for me to sign personally. In that letter there is again the threat that is tantamount to blackmail. Look, Rajagopal, I am really not frightened of your going to court so kindly do not use that threat any more. You who claim to be a Brahmin have sunk so low that you betrayed everything for your own personal power, secret manoeuvring and egotistic jealousy. This is all I have to say. This letter is not written in any spirit of vengeance or to hurt your vanity. It is written to point out what a deep abyss there is between you and anything sacred and decent. If there were any sense of honesty, fairness you would return everything, behave like a decent, honourable man and become a real Brahmin.

Commentary on the above by Daemon Silk, Director GMAF.

It is an historical fact that K was a profoundly bourgeois man with pretensions and leanings toward the upper classes in Europe and the landed and monied classes in the USA. By dissolving the Order of the Star he merely exchanged one set of funders for another and gained considerable kudos for being a man alone traversing a pathless land.

He was, later in his career, notoriously close to and friendly with the corrupt and vile Indian political despot Indira Gandhi at a time she was suppressing the Indian masses and bestowing illegal patronage on her sons and heirs.

K was never functionally in his career supportive of the Indian underclass or working class from which he sprang as the son of an impoverished father and was cosseted throughout his career by the likes of Miss Dodge, Lady Emily Lutyens, Annie Besant et al who further provided layers of protections between K and society at large.

The publication of the distasteful but revealing correspondence and documentation originating this message thread simply reveals K's fear of engagement with issues he knew did not reveal him in a favourable light. He disingenuously attempts to place all the responsibility for his traumas on Rajagopal, despite the facts proving otherwise as they would have been if revealed in open court if the litigation between them had proceeded and not been stopped when K capitulated.

All K had to do was to fire Rajagopal when the first occasion of their incompatibility arose, instead of behaving as a coward would and putting up with what he describes later as an abusive and bullying relationship with Rajagopal. It is inconceivable that a person who claimed the elevated consciousness K did could manifest the dysfunctional and neurotic behaviour of a battered but addicted spouse in relation to Rajagopal.